Taking Another Look
Notice below what I am talking about..
But hand me some paints that are not in my go to collection and I fall apart- having no idea what to do or how to work with the colors- making a big fat mess.
One day I decided that I was going to venture out of my comfort zone and stick with creating something until it was completed.
The painting at the top of this post is the result of that exercise.
How does that relate to my mediation experience?
Well it doesn't!
I started out the painting with lots of deep dark blues and whites. I put quite a bit of texture in using sand, gauze and other materials. When I was finished, it was a complete disaster- no where near capturing the memory I was going for.
So what do you do?
Paint over it!
Again, I didn't like the result.
So I painted,
and repainted several times.
Did I mention how frustrated I was? Well I did want something to take me out of my comfort zone- mission accomplished!
Walk Away for a Few Hours
When I returned to the piece I decided to take a different approach. Instead of painting over it one more time, I picked the painting up- turned it upside down and sideways
Then the texture caught my attention
and I had a new direction
I saw what appeared as an outline of a face. Using that as a guide, looking at the work, from a new set of eyes, without an intention, I began to work intuitively.
Here is the finished piece
But it showed me that I can reach inside to find what else lurks within. Since then I have added blue to my repertoire, and am feeling a bit more comfortable with it.
Now maybe I can take a different look at how I do my housekeeping!